Sunday, September 30, 2007

Have you heard GOD?


Just when I thought..
That everyone has forgotten me
And left me in the dark
Inside this tunnel of scary life
God peeps into my heart
Like a ray of sunshine..
And whispers
I am still here.. I haven’t left

Just when I thought
I couldn’t continue anymore
And I have given all what I have
And nothing more to give
God whispers in my ears
And gently reminds me
No you are not done yet my dear..
You have more to live for
More to give and more to get
More to learn and more to grow

Just when I thought
All my dear friends have forgotten me
And have no use of me anymore..
Here comes god again
And whispers
Did you forget I am your best friend?
And I am still here

Have you heard God?
You may call it different names…
You higher power, your inner voice, your godly self or your divine self..
Your authentic self or your inner self..
This is not about a religion
It’s about faith
Faith in you
And your higher self
That part that reflects your godly self..
Have you found the god in you or within you or above you?
I hope you have..
If not I hope you invest some time
To find it..
Because it is the greatest gift you can give yourself..
The best ever friend you can find for yourself..

God is one person who has not disappointed me
One person who has always been there for me
One person who has never isolated me
One person who has not betrayed me
One person who has not disrespected me
One person who has not ignored me
One person who has loved me for who I am
One person who has delivered on time all his promises
One person who didn’t forget me
One person who has held my hand and showed me the way

And I am here to say – its in you too..
It’s not just for me but for you too..
Its grace is also for you
Let me remind you again,
It has nothing to do with a religion or a particular faith group
It’s in all of us..
Depending on your belief
It’s with you, in you, within you or above you
But its there for you

So today, take time to find it.. find the God within you.


Saturday, September 29, 2007

Happy Birthday to ME


Good day to you all my dear friends.. sorry for the long pause.. wao it was been a really long pause.. and thank you to some of you who reminded me that I am in fact taking a way too long break..

Guess what? two months ago I turned 41! Yes, yepeeeeeeeeeee…. Well it started a bit sobby and weepy because some people I thought would remember it was my birthday forgot or didn’t know.. hmm its always hard.. it’s even harder to admit and write it here.. because we are taught not to talk about these things and let it pass or just say “oh, its okay.” You know what? I am 41 and I am getting too old to pretend anymore, I want to live truthfully as much as possible. And hopefully I like to walk my talk. I cant hold back the tears anymore and pretend like its okay. so I tell you it sucks when your dearly beloved friends forget.. okay.. I feel better now.. and the good part was people I thought would never remember did remember and called me to wish.. ha.. amazing ha.. God always does something to balance the act.

Approaching my 41st birthday, I was determined I was going to celebrate it in a different way.. I have reached a time and stage where I strongly feel I must live for myself. Hum. Some of you might say isn’t it too late. Trust me, I do feel its too late but then if I pass now when will I ever get to do it? I have always lived for someone. For my parents, for my husband – or some one. my existence has always been for someone else other than myself.. I realized this recently – a few months back.. and it’s not the greatest realization.. and I feel its time to change it..

The first thing I did was printing out the lyrics of the song my way – by Frank Sinatra.. boy isn’t that a beautiful song.. Do you remember the words? its lovely.. this is how I want to live.. my way.. and why not?

I decided to spend the day just by myself.. ah shocked? But why not? after work I had booked myself for a head-to-toe massage.. ah.. what a treat.. then I dressed up and went for dinner by myself and after, for a movie.. it was nice.. a very nice experience.. it was my special gift for myself.. for me it was a memorable birthday.. turning 41 and learning to live for myself..

Birthday is just another day.. true.. another 24 hours in our lives.. but it was a good day to start something new.. because I knew I had to start some where.. I am sharing this with you so you too can do something for yourself.. and take control of things when you can..

I wished myself a Happy Birhday.. and it sure feels good to know that I am there for myself... I know I have started something new and I want to continue to do it..

Would you like to start something new? why not? Give it a try..

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Happy September!


Hello friends, hope you all are doing great. I am so sorry for not writing..
Ah.. what can I say.. going through some transitions myself and have not had the peace-of-mind to write something. But I must tell you I have really missed it.

Thank you all for your encouraging words and it keeps me going.. it means a lot for me so thank you from the very bottom of my heart. And thanks for your reminders that I have not updated my blog since May.

Wao, can you believe, its September.. kids are back to school and summer fun is about to finish.. well it’s a sign to get serious and focus on one’s goals.. I love September.. the beginning of another glorious season.. and my favorite season is Fall.. most of all I also feel this is a time to set new goals.. and certainly for me – a brand new season with brand new hopes..

Talk about hopes, even if they shatter its nice to have hope.. life is nothing without hope.. what do you think? Every time a hope shatters I tell myself no more hopes.. but what is life without hope? What do we wake up to? What do we breath for? What do we live for? If not for HOPE!

This brand new season I want to concentrate on living for one’s self.. that is for myself.. and I want to share my experiences on this part of the journey of life with you. The recent transitions I have gone through or currently going through have made me pay attention to this. Perhaps its part of growing.. humm.. I like to put it this way than just saying getting old.. ahhhhhhhh.. I want to scream… but really, not a lot of us.. especially women, do live for ourselves.. Isn’t it sad.. we don’t choose to live for ourselves.. we tend to take of everyone except our glorious selves.

How can we experience life to the fullest if we don’t live for ourselves? How would we ever get-to-know us.. the U in yoU?

Today, I heard someone saying on radio – We all die but very few live – how true.. Now that we know we die shall we try to live?

And may I request from now on for all readers to participate in sharing your comments.. you don’t have to state your real name.. I understand your concerns about privacy..and I respect this.. but I just like to know your thoughts.. I also like to feel that I am not alone in this path..

Happy September friends.. love you all!