Searching for Happiness

Are you searching for Happiness?

When I was younger I thought I would achieve happiness through the material things I would possess, and also things like social status, etc. But now I realize it really does not.

I wish somebody had told me, for I would have lived my life differently. Well, I guess, it was all part of my journey.

I find happiness lies in tiny little moments.. they come and go.. and doesn’t really last for a long time.. Can’t find it in one particular location, thing or person. It’s all over.. and happiness could mean different things to different people.. so before you pursue it you need to know what exactly you are searching for..

Happiness to me is the feeling I experience when I walk bare feet in cool, blue-green grass, is also the colours of the sky at sunset or sunrise, watching the rain, listening to the birds chirp, the shy smile of baby, or tickling its sweet tender feet, spending quality time with friends, window shopping, listening to the sounds of beautiful music, savoring an ice cream cone on a hot summer afternoon, cheering my friends playing cricket at a park, sharing home cooked food with loved ones, attending to my plants in the garden, napping on a Sunday afternoon, having a personal relationship with god, dancing to peppy beat, being among friends, chatting with someone dear on net.. these are some things that bring me happiness.. they come in little bubbles, they don’t last long.. but still they are there.. they are in every day life.. they are inexpensive, and they are around you.. you just have to pay attention..

When I was younger I thought happiness was in the car I drove, the house I owned, the position I held, how much money I had in my bank.. so I pursued many many years trying to achieve these, by doing this, I failed to feel the happiness that was already present around me, I was busy getting ready to be “happy”, I thought one day, with all my hard work that I would reach the state of happiness.. and I could say to all.. “yeah! Now I am happy.. yippyyyyyyy!” well, it never happy.. how very wrong I was.

I hope you are not doing what I did.. for I wasted a whole lot of years.. and time is running out so fast, you cant take it back.. I find many people sacrificing their health and the relationships they should really value, in search for happiness. Sometimes, it could be too late, when you realize this..

What does happiness mean to you? find it and go for it.. Life is way too short..

Why?

Why is it so hard for many of us women to take care of our own selves? Even when we know we are falling apart and about to crack, we still don’t give ourselves the permission. Traditionally as women, we are the ones whom others expect to take care of others. But who really takes care of us? Who really asks us how we are doing? What we need? If we are okay?

Times have changed, many of us are ourselves the breadwinners of our families, and many of us juggle a career and a family. We are also human and we have needs, goals, desires and likes just like our children and spouses or partners. Even if the whole world forgets that we must not.

Just like for everybody human on earth, our creator also had a plan for us. And it’s not just being a mother, wife, sister, or daughter. We to can teach, lead, create, fight, dance and sing. We too come with a bag full of goodies, with god given talent. God didn’t forget us. God never told that we don’t value or we are unworthy.

Girls, mothers, daughters, wives, sisters – here’s to all.. if you have a dream go for it. First give yourself permission to take care of yourself – you are here, because god wants you to be here, and you have a place on this earth. You are needed, wanted and loved. You are not just a background prop, you are spotlight. So claim your right and grab your light.. go for it.. There may be none to push you, just like you push your family towards success, so we have to do it ourselves. If you get up.. and reach out.. if no one else does..God will give you a hand..

Go for it!

Changing Others...

Through my deep love for certain people close to my heart, I have tried to change them for the better, because I could see their path and what is lying for them ahead. But today, I have realized that it’s not something I could do. After spending many years trying to change their paths for the betterment of their own selves, I have failed considerably. Not just once but a few times this has happened to me.

Well, if only I had listened to the god’s voice inside of me, I wouldn’t have got hurt. But the truth is I didn’t. I realized I couldn’t change anyone. It’s only god who can do it. And god himself tells me even he can’t, if the person concerned is not opening his heart to him.

I am sure, some of you, like me have tried this. In my case I failed miserably. But I realize that this is because I tried to do something that I have no power and authority to begin with. No matter how much I love a person, or how much great intensions I have towards the growth of that person, I cant change a person if the person truly does not want to change. He or she needs to learn his lessons in his own preferred way. I personally try to avoid trouble.. When I see trouble heading my way, if I can I try to cross the road. I try not to fall in deep to the pit – but this is how I am used to. I noticed not all do this way. Some of my loved ones, regardless of how much assistance they get, still prefer to fall into the pit, or go “head-on” colliding with trouble. And I realize now this is how they learn. And yet, still a few don’t lean from their mistakes. They keep repeating them over and over again. They fall into the same pit again and again. It’s hard to see some one walking on the wrong path. But I realize now that this is how they learn their lessons.

What can we do? Just pray for them and let them be. And continue our journey on our own path. First, I thought it was selfish, but I realize now its not. For each person has a different path to walk on and we do it on our own way and own time. We really don’t have power to change others, especially if they are not open to being helped.

Are you constantly trying to change someone? I am sure it’s for good reasons but – if its not working then may the person is not ready to change yet.

Thank You - Dear GOD

Dear God

Thank you so much for your presence during these very difficult times in my life. I had felt most people had left me, but you are still with me, every single day - day and night. Thank you for giving me a hand, when I needed it most.

I now know that you are the only constant friend in my life, and that you would never abandon me. Thank you dear god for always being there for me. Your presence in life is such a blessing. I really couldnt survive without your love and support.

Thank you for your guidance dear god, thank you for showing me the way, thank you for holding my hand through my walk in the darkness, thank you for giving me courage, wisdom and hope and thank you for all the lessons in life. From each lesson I have learnt something absolutely great.

With all the things that had happened in my life, and also the things that are currently happening, I have leant a lot from these lessons. I have been able to still find strength in sorrow and sadness. I have become more courageous, wiser and more knowledgeable about myself, people around me and life. Through all these miseries I have become closer to you. As people distanced from me or I distanced from them, I have got closer to you and have found a real loving, loyal, sincere friend in you. Thank you for your friendship and extending your unconditional love towards me.

Thank you for being in my life.

God's friendship and love is extended to all, if you open your heart - he is there.

A conversation with My SELF...

I was looking for my self.. yes, my lost self…

Niroma.. Niroma.. where are you? I can't find her...

No response.. I was worried.. had she left me? had she bid good-bye to me?

Niroma.. Niroma.. please.. I am sorry, I know I have neglected you.. I have been busy and I know I have not spent time with you enough.. but please.. don’t be mad.. come back.. come back….I have missed you…and I realized.. you are all I have..

Huum…promise? Promise you don’t treat me like a doormat? Promise you don’t treat me like the city’s bin? I am mad I dont feel like talking to you...

Ohhh.. you are there.. thank god.. you didn’t leave me.. thank god.. yes, yes, yes, I am sorry, I know.. I have not treated you well.. I am really sorry.. I had not given you time..

Yes, you have time for every one else but you don’t have time for me? And you say I am the most important person in your life? And you only have me..that is crap... well I tell you missy for a person who says things like that, you are really not delivering.. All this talk is not okay with me.. do you realize, people talk a lot theseday? you, and everyone else.. the leaders, the followers, and all else.... they talk.. make big promises.. I will give you this and that, and be there for you and love you and all that crap but really.. where is the action.. no goods are being delivered.. so you cheat each other.. with more and more promises, and these days no one feels guilty about broken promises.. because it’s the norm and its hip to do this.. Sorry? My foot, that word has no meaning anymore, it’s the same with I love you too.. do you realize that today words have no meaning? Food has no taste? Flowers don’t smell anymore? Values are not valued anymore? Fashion has no style anymore? Music has no rhythm anymore? Dancing its full of vulgarity? I guess I am mad.. yeah I think I am mad.. see I don’t even know if I am mad..

I am sorry, please.. let me try to make things work.. I don’t want you to go away.. because this is the truth.. you are the only person I have.. my mother told me this many many times but I didn’t really realize.. she said we are born alone and we die alone.. after 42 years I realize this.. other than god you are the only person I truly have.. I realize I had not paid attention to you or value yourself the way I should have.. I had always wanted others to be with me.. .. one after other I have been looking for someone.. if not Jane its Jill (you know its not Jane or Jill.. but you get my point) but Jane or Jill it’s the same.. the difference is they come in different sizes and colours… perhaps I have really looked for you in others? And had thought others could replace you? Perhaps I had not really realized the person I have been looking is you? I dont know.. do I make sense.. you are me, I am you then why am I talking to you.. does this mean I am talking to me.. well it does not matter.. you understand me right? I am sorry, will you come back to me? I promise I will not neglect you, I will also not let people walk all over you like a doormat. Lets be friends shall we? Lets give it another try.. Please…

Huum.. after all, you are also me.. and I am also you.. I am your inside and you are my outside.. I guess we have to learn to live together.. I cant live without you and you can live without me.. So.. I am open to trying it.. if you are willing.. it’s a commitment.. it’s as important or if not more - than the commitments you make with others, your employer, friends and family. I want you to realize you have a responsibility towards me. This is your primary responsibility but you seem to have forgotten that and you put every one and every thing before me. I want to stand up for myself.. I don’t want to be at the bottom of your list. I am the star in your life and I want to be treated like the star and not the doormat.

If I don’t fight for you tell me who would? If I don’t take care of yourself and myself tell me who would? When you are sick who is by your side? When you are hurting who is there for you? When you are alone who is there for you? I am you and I am also your best friend. Just the way you treat your best friends in life, you need to treat me with the same love, respect, warmth and dignity. I know you are a great friend to your friends.. for some you would give your life.. but would you for me? Would you be my best friend? Me the person who lives with you every minute, every second of your life? People have come and gone in your life.. but have I really left you? I may have given you the silent treatment (I learnt this from your mother!) but I have not left you.. if I have left you then to whom are you talking to now? I am here.. I have always been here.. I know your every move, every thought – you cant fool me. And don’t even try.. so yeah.. and yes, I want to us to try.. to be best of friends.. huum… by the way.. yes, I love you. You should give me a medal for I have lived with you for 42 years.. soon 43.. who ever lived with you for that long? And for how ever number of years I have left I will still live with you.. I don’t have a choice because this is god’s choice.. I have to say sometimes, I have considered leaving.. I have felt like looking outside for better opportunities.. it sickens me when you don’t treat me the way you treat others.. yeah, you are really nice to others.. always there for them.. giving your love and support.. time and energy and everything.. you are always phone call away, e-mail away.. well that’s great.. keep it up.. but don’t neglect me.. remember I am here too and I am you.

Yup.. it’s a long lecture.. you know me.. don’t talk much on regular basis.. but I thought I had to.. you need to get some things in your head.. I am serious.. I hope I don’t have to repeat this again..

I understand every word you have said.. and I am in agreement.. I know I have not been that good to you.. I am sorry and I mean it.. please forgive me.. I am going to remember this conversation and try to make things better.. we are approaching a new year.. 2009.. I want to be good to you.. thank you for your words…

Have you spoken to yourself lately? I have and I have just been TOLD! but I needed to hear that..

Are you there for yourself?

Well, it’s been while since I have written anything in my blog.. days are passing by so quickly – I feel I am like in a rat race. Running.. running and running.. where to? I don’t even know.. I feel exhausted at the end of the day.. so many obligations, so many responsibilities, duties and commitments, by the time I get everything done I am too tired to be there for myself. Hello.. Hello.. Niroma.. where are you? I feel she has left.. well I can't blame her..

Things are certainly not happening according to plan, disappointments and heartbreaks but yet life goes on. Sometimes, I feel like I dont want to see the dawn of another day.. but well.. here it comes.. Hum, I feel I am trapped in a gloomy spell that doesn’t seem to pass.. sunshine! Sunshine!! Where are you? I am missing you..

I had wanted to write more this year.. but I wasn’t able to accomplish it.... and then there is this book I had wanted to write – I have been thinking about it for years now.. Where does time go? Doing what?

I am in the business of getting other people on track.. It comes naturally because it’s also my daytime job! but now, I feel totally out of track. Who is going to care for the caregiver? Who will counsel the counselor?

Well, I guess, its time I do something about it – before I lose myself totally. I need to find myself and get in touch with my self. Afterall, who would I be without Niroma.. .when I come to think of it.. she is the most important person in my life next to god.. I will have to do what I do for others. Yes, be there for myself. I hope you are not in the same boat as I am… I will tell you it’s not a good place to be.. its empty and certainly not fun. Takes the zest of your life.. its like a day old, opened can of soda.. no fizz.. no jazz.. no nothing.. oh.. a double negative.. it is double negative..

okay.. got to go.. got to be there for myself.. that is all I've got...

Are you there for yourself? if not... you better be!

Take this day and make something out of it....

If things are not going your way

Did you know that you could change direction?
Nothing is set or carved in stone?
Don’t like what is happening with your life?
Then why don’t you change it?

Change direction.. if you can’t move forward
Then turn to the right or left..
Or walk back if needed and find another inter-section
Do something… move.. keep moving
Don’t get stuck

Every day is a new day…
A new sunrise..
New hope, new dreams..
Your past is not your present
Sure there is nothing you can do about your past
Don’t you wish you could go back?
And re-create everything you did wrong
And also the people who were involved in your past
Did the same thing
Said sorry, or took responsibility or did something?
But do you realize there is nothing you can do…
We have no power to change our past or even the people involved
All we can do is to change our selves..
Than to learn lessons – learn from your mistakes

Should we pay for our past mistakes forever…
Make our lives miserable…
With the dawn of a new day.. God is giving us another chance
To make things right and live our very best life..

Here we go friends..
Take this day and make something out of it..
Make it your best..
You are given another chance…

Take this day and make something out of it..

Lost Dreams....

To all women who lost a dream…

I am sorry it didn’t come true..
So your bubble got burst..
And you realized that
From day one..
It was just a dream..
A very nice dream..
But it was just a dream
And nothing more…

And you thought someone was walking with you
On your path – walking hand-in-hand…
Dreaming the same dream
In the same vibrant colours you had seen..
And you were so in to the dream
For years and years…
That you didn’t realize
From the very beginning
It had just being only you..
Just you walking alone
And there really wasn’t anyone walking with you
And you had always been alone…
It was only in your dream
That you saw two!

The charming house, the beautiful garden filled with sweet summer blossoms
Watching that vibrant sunset together…
Walking hand-in-hand in a golden sandy beach…
Feeling that blue blue ocean breeze..
Staring madly in to each other’s eyes under a starry starry night
Holding hands.. whispering sweet words of love
Waltzing around to that beautiful melody…
And it goes on and on…
Just like a Harlequin romance you read years and years ago…

All those years you work hard
Day in, day out….
To make that dream come true…
A dream that you dreamt
A dream that you dreamt for two
Just remains a dream
That would not come true

But sisters…
Painful, as it sounds..
We can learn a lesson
We can still dream..
What is life without dreams?
But this time sisters..
We can dream our dream
Yes.. our dream.. YOUR dream…MY Dream
A dream where you play the lead..
A dream that consists of you
Not for two.. but for you..
So that you can work hard
And make it come true..

Sisters, do you realize?
We have no right to dream for others..
Each person is responsible for their own dreams
If one day if we cross paths and share our dreams
With each other
It’s wonderful.. but if it does not..
It should be okay too…

But dear sisters..
May I remind you?
You have the right to dream
And also to make your dream come true
After all, what is life..
Without a dream?

Dream on.... don't let anyone stop you!

Is it time to move on?

Let’s not waste our time
Knocking on closed doors
Let’s not waste our time
On waiting for people who never show up
It takes two to tango
And one alone can’t do it

There is always a reason
For the silence
But, one could try to share
If they have trust in each other
Belief and have faith
And respect for each other
And for the relationship you are in…

What are we suppose to do?
Wait forever and ever..
Not knowing what is going on..
You see them talking to others
You see them living their life
But yet they have no time for you
No time to talk? No time to explain?
Lack of interest?
Do you want out? Then say so..
Have guts.. be honest…
Have courtesy to say good-bye

Lets cut our loses and move on..
There is no point in trying to enter
When the door is closed…
In this life we don’t own anyone
We can’t hold on to people
Who wants to walk away
Let them walk away…
To their destiny

To them free

and also let you free
Lets not stand anymore
In front of a close door
Looks like they may have left from the back door
Without even saying good bye…

And for what ever reason they don't want you anymore

And perhaps they forgot to tell you

Busy? who knows..

Other committments.. may be...

Thousand questions..

But no answers...

Lets have courage

To move on...

The door was closed

but life didnt stop

Sometimes, we stop..

but Life does not..

it flows.. it moves..

always forward....


Have you been standing in front of a closed door?

Is it time to move on?

Let go.....it's time....

It’s okay if you didn’t get the love of the person you loved most
It's okay if you didn’t get the attention of the person you seek most
It's okay if you were not included in the life of that someone you always wanted most
It's okay they forgot you
It's okay they turned back
It’s okay that things didn’t work out..
Perhaps it was not meant to be
It would have been your plan
But not the plan of your creator…
What ever happened to you
What ever pain you went through
You survived…
If you are reading this you are alive..
This means you had survived..
You are alive..
Stop.. breath.. in.. . and out..
Again… in… and out…
You are alive…
Hearts break – Lives lost
Shattered dreams.. broken promises…
Life must go on

Things happen – and we don’t know why
We may want to think and analyze and wonder
But we will never know why…
We really don’t know why things happen
The only person who knows is the one above
The one with the bird’s-eye view
He sees far.. he sees the end and he knows us all

Let’s not hold on to anger
Misery and agony
It’s not going to help us at all
It will kill us.. bit by bit..
Forgive yourself..
And forgive others…
Yes, those people who gave you pain
Let them walk away
You can’t move on, holding on
Just let go
Let if off your mind and heart
You learnt your lesson
This is just one part of your life..
You still have the rest of your life…

It’s okay if you didn’t get the love of the person you loved most
But learn to love yourself first…
It's okay if you didn’t get the attention of the person you seek most
But learn to pay attention to yourself first
It's okay if you were not included in the life of that someone you wanted most
But learn to include yourself in your own life
It's okay they forgot you
But don’t forget yourself
It's okay they turned back
But don’t turn back on yourself

Remember.. they may have gone.. but you are here..

Imagine...

Imagine…
You are in the eve of your life….
Sitting on a rocking chair…
Looking back at your life..
Yes, your life…
Is there a smile on your face?
A sense of satisfaction in your heart?
Would you feel happy?
Would you feel content?
Would you feel joy?
Would you feel proud of your accomplishments?
Did you use all your god given potential?
Did you travel?
Did you sing?
Did you dance?
What memories do you have?
Did you do your best to live your best life?
Did you at least try?

Or is it all full of regret?
Disappointment?
Agony and misery?
Tears of sadness?
A frown on your face?
Anger flowing through your body?
Unfulfilled dreams
Lost hopes
Shattered hearts….

broken promises...

You are still not late..
You have today.. yes! today
To create some happy memories for tomorrow
Yesterday – is gone.. we can’t do much
But today…
Today you can..
You can still create some smiles, some laugher, some joy
For you to cherish for tomorrow..


If you want to you can.. but it’s all up to you?

You are Valued....

Do you realize?
You don’t owe your life to any man or woman?
But yourself....
Do you realize?
Living for yourself is your responsibility
That is what you are here for…

Are you living well my friend?
Are you living with joy?

With peace in your heart and mind?

Have you found your path my friend?

The path that is meant for you?

Are you doing what you are suppose to?
Do you realize you are needed here
And you have a place on this earth..
That is why my friend
Your creator brought you here….

White, black, yellow or brown
You are valued my friend
And you are needed
Fat, thin, tall, short, curvy or flat
You are valued my friend
It’s not in the colour of your eyes or hair or your skin
It's what is in your heart
It’s what inside of you my friend
You are valued....

Married, divorced, separated
Child less or with children
Blue-collar or white-collar
You are valued my friend..
You are here for a reason..
You have a place

You are valued and wanted and you have a place on this earth

and you are also here for a reason

take time to find out your reason....

I am trying to talk to you...

Mommy would you listen to me?
Daddy would you listen to me?
Please…
I am here…
I am trying to say something..
I can’t find the right words yet
But I want to say this..
Do you see me?
I am here..right here..

Do I matter Daddy?
Do you see me as another human being?
But..
Then why do you behave like I am not?
Why do you not listen to me?
Why do you not ask me what I want?

I get confused..
Why do you send me to school?
To learn, learn and learn
But then…
I am learning.. I am learning a lot..
I am leaning how to write
I am learning how to talk
I am learning how to think
Do you know mommy?
I can now read, write and speak
And can also think..

Yes.. I think mommy..
I think and learn how to act
And to make tiny decisions

mmm...yes, I know what I like

I know what I dont like..
I think mommy when you talk..
I also listen…
I watch when you do things, I observe..
Yes daddy.. I am watching everything you do..

and also you mommy...

And you know daddy?
I have feelings…
Yes.. like big people
I feel…
I sense…
But mommy….
Would you remember this..
When you yell at me for no reason
Can you remember this?
Since I can think now…
Next time
Can you ask me what I want?

can we talk about our feelings?
Would you take time to listen?

Mommy.. mommy
I am not like my dolly anymore
Now I can think..
Now I can feel..
Now I can sense
I can see
I can hear
I can talk
I can walk
Would you remember this?

Would you remember this?

they are trying to say something to you...

Are you paying attention?

Who are you GOD?

Who are you God?
What is your name?
You said to me..
“It does not matter my dear child….
My name does not matter
What matters is you know me..

Dont you?

Some call me this..
And some call me that..
It does not matter
For I am ONE…

I am not here to separate
I am here to unite
I am not here to fight
I am here for peace
I am not here to destruct
I am here to construct
I am not here to demolish
I am here to build and re-build
I am not here to create anger, hate or misery
I am here to spread love, peace and joy
Those who understand this
Know me my child…

It’s not about my name
It’s not about my colour
It’s about what I stand for..

Who is god?
To me it’s sense of presence
A powerful and strong presence
I have felt and can not express
Since I was a very young child
Sometimes inside of me
Sometimes around me
And sometimes above me

Where does he live?
He lives in beauty

He lives in music
He lives in love
He lives in compassion
He lives in peace
He lives in joy

He is the early morning dew drop

He is the in the majestic sun rise

I see him.....

yes, I see him...
I see him in the heart of a joyful person
In the laugher of a toddler
In a soft chuckle of a baby
In the glistening eyes of a loving friend
Inside a blossoming flower
In the deep blue ocean
In the mighty rocks
In green valleys and mountains
In sunshine and twinkling stars
In melodious music
And in the fingertips of an artist
In the moving body of a passionate dancer..

God is my friend, coach and my guide
God is with me all night and day
He is one person who has never left me
Strangely I met him
When I lost everything and every one
When I thought I have nothing
And every one has left
But he was there

“shhh.. my child.. I am here with you,
I have not left you and I will not leave you…
I am your creator…and you are in my care…

you are here because I need you”

Who is God to you?

Mistakes....

Ah.. here I go again..
I curse myself.. .
Who did this happen to me again..
Why did I let this happen to me again
I should have known..
This is not the first time
I tell my myself
Frowning at my own mistakes

Mistakes, mistakes, mistakes
I have made many
And yet I continue to make a few more
Just when I think I will not make another mistake
I have just made another

But aren’t mistakes lessons in life
Isn’t it how we learn lessons..
By doing mistakes and learning from them?
In a way, if I didn’t make mistakes
Would I have much to talk about?
Can I say yes, I have done that, being there?
This is how I felt and this is what I did..

I realize there are no mistakes in life
But only lessons
But unless we learn the lesson
It will keep coming back
Back again and again..
In different colours, different shapes
But it’s the same lesson…

Hopefully, when we know better
We can do better
So mistakes are just as important
As the successes we make in life
If only we have the wisdom to learn from them…


Learn from your mistakes the first time.. If not it will repeat again and again!

Where are you running?

Stop!
Think…
What are you doing?
Where is your life flowing?
Are you just running?
Running to or running away?
Or running with the flow..
Are you living?
Or just existing?
Don’t know or don’t want to know..
or
No time?

When was the last time you smiled?
When was the last time you stopped to smell the roses?
When was the last time you experienced joy?
No time?
What are you doing with your time?
Working?
For what? for whom?
Pay bills.. you might say..
But what bills are you paying?
May I ask?
Are they bills you really need?
Or are they bills you think you need?
Stop! and think…
Is your money and efforts going in the wrong way..
Is it going to a drain without knowing?
I see your account is full and brimming
But yet..
Then why are you feeling so empty?
Why are you running empty?
Why are you not happy? What are you not at peace?
Peace and happiness and tranquility
It’s not for me
You might say..
But I say you are wrong..
It’s also for you
Its also for all of us
But you have to find it..
It’s within you
It’s within your reach..
The name and status and fame and popularity
You have built or going after
I hope it will give you something back..
For you to hold on to on a dark lonely night
If the world forgets you just in case…

You are constantly running…
But my dear, where are you running?
Do you even know?
I hope..
I hope you know…
Seems like you are always in a hurry..
You don’t have time for anything..
For anyone or just for you..
But you are busy..
Day and night
Weekdays and weekends…
Busy doing things..
But yet..
I don’t see a smile on your face..
I don’t see joy in your eyes..

So.. stop and think
know where you are running to
And what you are running after
And then run on your own pace..
At your own comfort level
Don’t let others push you
To a run in a direction that you don’t want to
At the end..
It’s your run.. It’s your race..
Only you and you
Will meet the creator at the end..
Not me, not them
Just you!

Are you running?

Are you ready?

Shhhhh…….
Guess what?
Listen…
Sounds of birds..
The grass has turned green..
The last drops of snow have melted..
It’s still dark and gloomy
I hear the pitter patter of rain drops…
It’s April.. yes.. It’s April…
I look outside my window…
I see.. I see..
I see…
Hope…
Hopes of spring…
This time.. it is late…

I thought god has forgotten..
But finally,
I see its coming..
I hear the sounds..
I hear the smell
Of spring
Of hope..
New dreams, new goals..
A chance to make things right again..
To see the world in colour again…
I look forward to blue blue skies
Green green grass..
Blossoms of all colours
Lilac, pink and periwinkle blue..
Butterflies and little birds..
The sound of children
Laugher and play
It's time again
To dream and dream

yes of lovely dreams....

Goodbye winter blues
Hello Spring…
The spring of life
The spring of hope
The spring of joy
The spring of love..
Perhaps..
We can build again..
What ever we lost
In the dark, cold winter..

taken away
by the wicked storms and high winds
Taking away our dreams and hopes
Perhaps now
Again we can dream..
Again we can hope
It's time to
Review, rewind, and rejuvenate
And rebuild or rekindle...
What we lost in the storm
Hello.. Spring..
I welcome you both hands..
Welcome to my world
And my life..
I am glad you are back…

I missed you and waited for you for so long....

Are you ready for Spring?

What Do you Do?

Don’t you find sometimes
What ever you try to do or say
Goes wrong …
You try to do good with the best of your intentions
You try to save someone from making a huge mistake
You try to say some thing good to heal someone
With the best of your intentions
But yet,
It backfires?

And now everything sounds or looks
Like you have tried to create problems?
And make matters worse
Like adding fuel to the fire
Nothing seems to work

Why it happens I don’t know
Bad timing, bad judgement?
I don’t know.
All I know is, it happens

You offer your hand willing to help
Your open your ear to listen
You lend your shoulder to cry
You open your heart to give love
Your make your time to be there
You tell them that I am here for you..
But yet..
Nothing happens..
What ever you do is not enough
Or not good enough
Or may be its enough
But don’t you wish that
They would tell..
But don’t you wish they would take a second
And tell..

What do you do at times like this?
I don’t know..
Do you?

Don't turn back...

When things are tough
Don’t turn back
Muster your courage
And stay strong
And walk forward…
Yes, even if you are feeling hopeless
Empty and lonely
Just walk forward

This is time you must listen your inner self
Your guiding higher power
The negative voices may try to cripple you
And ask you to turn back
Give up and accept defeat
It will tell you, you are never good enough
And remind you of all your failures
Did I not tell you?
You can never be successful,
You will never measure up to anything
You are never loved
Go back.. turn back.. why bother
You are not good enough…

Don’t give in to your negative voice
Don’t let it take control..
Continue to have faith
Faith is believing in what you don’t see
Continue to walk forward..
If things are really bad
Take a rest..
But don’t turn back..
Keep walking forward..
You are this close to walking out
Walking out of the dark tunnel
Where you have been for many days,
Sometimes may be months or years..
Our creator can see how far you have walked forward..
For he has a bird’s eye view..
Not you or me..
So have faith and continue to walk forward..
When things get tough
It’s not the time to turn back..

Don't turn back - its not the time...

Are you looking for Happiness?

So you want to be happy?

looking for happiness?
Most of us do..
But do you know what happiness means to you?
What does happiness really mean to you?
Have you thought about this?
Not to your parents, not to your family
Not to the world..
But to you?
Do you have an idea..
What makes your heart glow..
Okay most people say that they would be happy if they win the lottery..
But what are the real chances of that..
Many and many depart without ever winning the lottery..
So what if you never win the lottery…
Think.. think.. think.. what will make you happy?
Sometimes, they are the little things…
Not necessary big things..
Things that you cant find around you…
Talking to a close friend..
Having a giggle
Or a belly laugh..
Being silly.. yes.. really silly…
Reading a book
Going out for a coffee with your girl friend..
Listening to your favourite music
Going for a walk..perhaps walking with your bare feet..
Making a garland from wild flowers
Chasing butterflies..
Eating vanilla ice-cream – huum, make a double scoop
These are simple joys in life..
That will make your heart sing
Bring a simile to your face
Dance your in your own tune..
Who cares what people might think…
Skip when you walk..
Know what makes YOU.. happy..
Then do some every single day..
Make it a priority to be happy
Make a commitment
Find your happiness
And start living it today…

What does happiness really mean to you?